I had the gambling bug since I have been 21. The good thing is that the only time I give a shit about gambling is when I am in Vegas. I am now on the East Coast which makes it a much longer flight and I have no interest in these Indian casinos out here. So that has kind of solved itself for now.
I havent stopped drinking or really even moderated it, as I get too much enjoyment from it. For the most part, I find life boring with short-lived moments of excitement and joy. The booze helps me focus and not worry so much about how all our lives are pretty much meaningless in the scheme of things. Some people might call this depression and maybe it is. But I rather be a depressed drinker than change my brain chemistry with some SSRI which forces my brain to paint a pretty picture when that isnt what I really see. I think too many people get labeled as "depressed" when they dont feel like their is real purpose. I think they are just telling the truth.






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