Brother, you found him in the mirror this morning. I know self awareness is hard, but nobody is posting walls of text but you.
For me, that's where the disconnect is in the character you're playing.
No successful business man shark type would bother. Not even for the amusement, not for all the spinning wheels in the world.
The type you're trying so hard to portray would have dug in, and doubled down,rather than nap it out a while back.
I do dig your posts though. I also subscribe to the pipes lifestyle of ball sunning.
Those facts: undeniable.
Welcome back little brother!