Thank you, and yes, I'm close to 50.
Truth of the matter is I've been thinking I want to have children within 5 years. In my mind, considering my age anything beyond 5 years wouldn't really be all that fair to a child as far as the chance of having a father around for a good portion of their life. I lost my dad 7 years ago and it definitely made me reconsider my thought process when it came to this.
Granted, I didn't expect it to go down like this, but that's life obv.